I’m standing here behind a glass wall
That separates my reality
With my fantasy.
I press my hand on the glass,
Wishing I could pass right through
And live somewhere I want to be.

I see the person I want to be with
But it’s a reality
That will never be achieved.
I can only watch on
As a life I want
Passes by.

My hand slowly slides,
Down the glass
And back beside me.
I feel a tear slide,
Down my face
And onto the floor.

I lean my forehead,
Against the glass
To try and make sense of it all.
I watch as that person;
Now walking away,
Leave my life.

I feel my heart break
With every step
That the person takes.
I want to be with that person
But all I could do
Is look and never touch.

I can never pass
Through this looking glass.

It was only a single look,
With that, my heart you took.
I didn’t understand why,
But I feel like I want to cry.
You will never notice how I feel,
And somehow I only have the option to deal.
I always look, hoping you would see,
But you never look back and I guess that’s meant to be.
I try to be better than who I am,
But I think I’m just being damned.
I want something to happen,
But who am I to kid?

This is another lost hope,
Maybe now I can finally cope.
A single day is left,
But it only feels like we just met.
Why does life tend to turn on me
When all I want to do is be.
I have so many questions to ask you,
Though I don’t think you would answer two.
I simply sit here,
Waiting in fear,
As the day comes to an end,
For you, a God send,
To be gone from my life.

One day,
I hope to say,
That I knew you and we were friends,
But that’s another reality,
Where dreams actually do come true.

I know that you can hear the rhythm of the rain
Although we’re miles apart I know you feel my pain
I try to be so strong, I try to carry on
But since you left the sun don’t seem to shine
My tears are falling on the words you wrote to me
I wish that somehow they could take me where I wanna be
It seems so long ago, you held me when I cried
For now I just pretend you’re by my side, oh-oh yeah

Everything that I touch turns to blue
When I’m living in a world without you
I’m going crazy baby, I am missing you
Can’t imagine all I go through
When I’m living in a world without you
I’m not alone I know that you can feel it too
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

I try to watch a movie but you’re all that I can see (all that I can see)
In my dreams I know I always see you constantly
But then a dream comes to an end and I’m alone
And I can’t seem to let this feeling go, whoa-oh baby

• Emma Bunton (A World Without You)

We’re both human,
We’re both alive.
There’s nothing between us inhuman,
For what we want we have to strive.

Then again to me there’s a difference,
In both status and personality.
People may just believe it’s indifference,
But to me it’s reality.

You’re higher in a state of society,
While I revel in the likes of where I am.
Maybe this is how it is yet my soul is in sobriety,
But my mind is feeling damned.

I don’t want to see the difference between us,
But it’s truly inevitable to defy what’s there.
Putting my head down and thinking is a must,
Because my head is telling me it’s unfair.

The wealth you gain,
Compared to the little I own.
I don’t know how to stay sane,
And keep my voice in a soft steady tone.

I’ll eventually burst and breakdown,
But for now I’m in sadness.
I should turn a smile from this frown,
And be happy and not go into madness.

But what’s there to say as indifferences…
When there’s obviously differences…

So I think about you so many times,
And I don’t know what to do.
You’re worth more than pennies and dimes,
And I bet you think that too.

There’s so much I want to talk about,
But we’re so different there’s no way to communicate.
I just want to scream and shout,
But that just makes my heart and soul ache.

Status keeps us departed,
And there’s nothing I can do about it.
You are so close to me; so deep hearted,
But I know in your heart I can’t fit.

I always think about you and me,
But you don’t even know who I am.
I wish that you could see,
But then who would give a damn.

It’s not like we’ll ever meet,
But I wish that we could truly talk.
I want you to know how my heart continues to beat,
Everytime you sing, talk, move and walk.

It’s as if you complete my soul,
And diminish all sadness from this life.
It’s surreal to be with you as a whole,
And it cuts my heart like a knife.

Right now I wish you could see this too…
Because what I need is you…

I’m looking out the window,
Where life and love looks onto.
I don’t know where it will go,
I don’t know what I’ll do.

I feel the chill of darkness,
And there’s no light to be seen.
It’s as if there’s mainly hopelessness,
Where love and joy had been.

There’s an odd feeling within me,
And I begin to think of what it is.
I wish I could pass the blur and see,
What kind of things I miss.

I open up the window and a burst of air comes in.
It tries to clear my mind,
Of all the pain and sin.
There’s so much in me that wants to unwind.

I look onto the horizon,
And see a soothing glow.
It’s so strong like a lion,
And it sends me a strong blow.

I let the peace come in,
And I finally come to rest.

I take a deep breath within,
And see my life at best.

Letting my pains disappear,
And finally letting go.
There’s so many things to hear,
As well as things to see though.

All I have to do is awaken,
And not be shaken.

I lie here on my bed,
Thinking of what you said.
We’ve been together for so long,
But if feels as if each moment is gone.

We’ve been there for each other,
We were like sister and brother.
You and I have a bond; a unity,
We’re always together in every opportunity.

I love you so much,
But I doubt you know my love as such.
I pray to God that you would understand,
Because my love is so grand.

I wish that you’d see this love,
Which is so pure like a dove.
I want us to be united at heart,
And that we’ll never be apart.

Then I see you with another person,
And I feel sick; it grows and worsen.
He’s so much I’m not,
And it feels like out love is now forgot.

I walk away,
Thinking and beginning to say…

Am I good enough?

I know you always tell me to speak my mind in anyway,
Because that’s how you would understand me.
I’m not that person, hey,
Because I don’t have always something to say see.

You always talk as if there’s no tomorrow,
But I get sick of it since you just go on and on.
You don’t always see what goes on around you, the sorrow.
I try to ignore what you say and get it all gone.

You always tell me that I listen to too much music,
But listen to yourself, you told me to “Speak my mind.”
Okay, sure that was basic,
But I express myself through music, I’m that kind.

You listened to a song that has my soul,
And you look at the lyrics as well.
You ask me why you have to listen to some song that’s less than whole,
I told you that I spoke my mind, which was all I had to tell.

You listened and read the song,
And I waited for you to talk.
There was a silence, it was that long,
And you began to take a walk.

I stopped you to find out what’s wrong,
And you were starting to tear up.
You told me that song was real strong,
You were looking like a sad pup.

You hugged me and cried on my shoulder,
Whispering sorry for not listening.
I knew you weren’t any colder,
And I saw your face that was glistening.

You wiped your tears away and began to laugh,
Saying how much you didn’t really know me.
You only saw the happy me, the first half,
Then you saw the other half, the half I showed thee.

All you had to do was listen to my way,
Because that’s all I have to say.

So I wake up to the sound of silence,
With no one by my side.
I look around to the darkness,
with no comfort to be found.
I sit in the cold,
Waiting to be saved,
but as I wait,
Something slips away.
I wonder where you are,
but you’re nowhere in sight.
I listen to the silence,
Hoping to hear your voice,
but there’s nothing.
I pull the covers closer,
Wishing for all this to end,
but nothing’s happening.
It’s as if time stopped,
Nothing is moving.
I get out of bed,
Search around to find you,
but there’s no one there.
I ask myself,
“Where are you?”
as I find nothing.
I call out,
“Are you here?”
but there’s no answer.
I turn around,
and a cold chill creeps up against my back.
I wake up to find myself in a cold sweat,
to find out that it was only a dream.
Then I look around,
and you aren’t here.
Was it a dream?
Or was it me searching within?
I take a deep breath,
and find out that you truly aren’t here.
I lost my connection with you,
and so did you.
I feel a tear fall down my face,
but I stop myself from crying,
because that won’t do any good.
I look to the side and see a picture.
A picture of us.
I pick it up and remember that time.
I turn it over,
to find the date it was taken.
I read that it had been two years.
Two years since everything fell apart.
Now I realized,
I realized my love for you slipped away,
and yours,
Yours began slippin away,
As every day gone by with out us talking.
We have our ways of communication,
but we don’t use it.
Our love slipped away.
Our friendship slipped away.
Any relationship slipped away.
I wish I could turn back time,
and say sorry for what I’ve done.
That isn’t possible,
because life is life.
It’s not a tape or a video,
which could be rewinded and edited.
Life’s a book,
You go on to see what happens.
Nothing is always good.
Now I wonder where you are,
because it’s as if you have disappeared,
disappeared off the face of the Earth.

I began to write,
just like I would usually do.
Then I listen to this song,
“Stickwitu”
and everything in front of me changes.
I feel cold,
I feel empty,
I feel broken.
I love the song,
but I love the moments that were with it.
Then again,
I hate the moment when you broke my heart.
All I did was care,
and all you did was ignore me.
I’ve seen so many things,
I’ve felt so many things,
I’ve said so many things,
that no one would experience for years.
I’ve lost my life to you,
I’ve lost my love to everything.
All I wanted to do was be with you.
All I wanted to do was be the one.
All I wanted to do was love you.
It didn’t happen,
It didn’t work out.
Now I sit here,
Writing,
Hoping that one day you’ll see,
That I loved you.

Then a year passes,
and everything is different.
The song still affects me,
but it hurts more now than ever.
Waiting for my love to return is hard,
because I feel stripped of all my feelings.
Nothing is the same,
Nothing will ever be the same.
I just wanted you to know,
That I’ll be here waiting for you.

—

“Stickwitu” – Pussycat Dolls

I ran away from you,
but you ran with me to.
I thought that you would let me go,
but you didn’t, heck no.
You made me stop running,
and looked me in the eye with your eyes, so stunning.
I couldn’t help wonder why you were here,
so close to me so near.
I didn’t think that you would stay,
with all I had to say.
I never did want you to leave,
so I end up holding onto your sleeve.
I feel like a little child,
all vulnerable and mild.
Hoping that you will hold me,
like I hold thee.
Then you say
‘I love You and I will
Never Leave, not now, not ever,’
and you heard me say
‘I love you too, I will never leave, together forever.’

I’m sitting here,
waiting for you to come back.
Everything is so tiring now,
there’s no energy left here.
I want to call you,
but I forgot where I put your number.
I didn’t want to forget,
I decided to lose it.
Everything has gone wrong between us,
but we try to fix it up.
It feels like nothing is worth my time,
but how stupid can I be?
You’re worth my time.
Why did I even lose your number?
Why did I want to lose you?
What have you done to me,
that made me so into you?
I don’t want to say I love you,
but then I’ll feel like I’m lying to myself and to you.
The pain is real,
the love is real.
What am I to do?
All I can do is wait here for you.

I don’t know who I am,
but right now I don’t give a damn.
Everything is ending and breaking,
and it’s all up for taking.
I don’t like the way I’ve turned out,
because I have no idea what this is all about.
Nothing is even the same,
it all feels like a game.
We don’t even talk to each other,
but do we even bother?
I’m sorry if I ever hurt you,
but I was already hurting too.
If i could turn back time and fix this,
I would clean up all my crap that is.
I’m depressed and I haven’t been like this forever,
ever since we were together.
I feel so effed up,
and my feelings were left in a cup.
Don’t leave me hanging here,
in the darkness of fear.
I miss you and please come back,
before I really go whack.

So you think that its okay,
To make me feel empty everyday?
I miss you so much,
We don’t even keep in touch,
and nothing is the same,
everything to me is like a game.
Emptiness filled my heart,
as we drifted apart,
making me feel ill
and I wish that void would fill.
Losing my best friend,
felt like the end,
because I had no one to talk to,
and I had nothing to do.
I may have screwed up a lot,
but now I have more thought,
to say what I should,
not what I could.
Nothing in the world makes this easy,
because everything is so cheesy.
You don’t know what the truth is anymore,
because everything is closed, every door.
You’re bound in reality,
Also in mortality,
since you can’t change everything.
You long to sing,
To feel happy and loved,
and find the one you call beloved.
The one who sets you apart,
and who claims your heart,
because they open your eyes.
You drift away with them,
and both of you act like a gem,
because you are both valuable,
and nothing will make you ever feel invaluable.
Together forever,
now and whenever.

—

“Good for nothing type of brother” – Bills, Bills, Bills by Destiny’s Child.

You ride along life,
Just living as it is.
Then you hit something along the path,
and go out to see what it is.
Then there was nothing there.
You begin to question what just happened,
but more and more questions appear.
You go back into the car,
in which you lived life,
but you’ve changed in which you question things.
You continue to ride along,
and let things flow.
You let reasoning explain these things,
but who made reasoning?