Thoughts…

“I Have To Make It Count”

I was finally living my life after all this pain,
But then you came along and it was hard to maintain.
I didn’t see you the first time,
But I somehow feel like that was a crime.
I feel bad that I didn’t look before,
When I first held open that door.
I’m happy, though, that I took that program,
Or else I would only feel damned.
I don’t understand why I’m letting myself feel this way,
But then again, what can I say?
You’ve taken my heart,
And I don’t ever want us to part.
Maybe I’m being dramatic,
But there is no way in hell I’m being sarcastic.

A simple smile makes me fly,
And the way you speak makes me sigh.
I feel like I’m another lovesick fool,
Wishing that what I felt wasn’t so cruel.
I lie to myself, wishing everything was okay,
But not when I see you everyday.
Sadly, all of this will come to an end,
And I don’t think my heart will mend,
Not when everything is going so well.

That simple lilt in your voice when you said that word,
Another version of this feeling, even stronger, occurred.
I turned to my friend and nearly died,
Thankfully, however, I only sighed.
I think I went to heaven and came back because of that action,
And I’m glad I didn’t do anything stupid; a bad reaction.
I really wished that all of this wouldn’t go away,
I just want you to stay.
Then again, who am I to say all this,
When I know that what I’m doing is a risk.
I’ll keep silent about all that I feel,
And hopefully I can deal.

One day is left and I have to make it count,
Because after that, you’ll never be around.

If I told you how I feel about you
Would you say the same and
If I wrote it in a letter
Would you keep it or throw it away

I never thought I’d feel the way I’m feeling lately
When everything you seem to do just drives me crazy

Every waking day you take my breath away
With every word you say you take my breath away
You look at me that way, baby come what may
I hope that you’ll always know how to take my breath away
How to take my breath away

– Emma Bunton (Take My Breath Away)